Silver Linings

Preface: I had a much better idea for how I wanted to end my blogging absence, but sometimes life happens and derails plans. I don't really know how to eloquently write today, but bear with me. This post is more for my own sanity than anything else.

     So yesterday was a really great day until it all of a sudden wasn't. I was walking home and someone yelled an incredibly rude and unsavory thing to me after asking me for directions. It felt like something that would happen in a bad teen movie. After he drove away, I don't think I moved for a solid 15-20 seconds; I felt like I had forgotten how to process. I walked into my apartment confused, hurt and on the verge of tears. Those tears came and eventually turned into anger tears. How could a total stranger completely degrade me like that? How did that even happen? Who was he? What kind of person thinks that doing something like that is ok? I was SO. ANGRY. I still am. Luckily, I am surrounded by people who care, so I was prescribed ice cream and puppy therapy, and those did wonders last night.

     Today's been weird. I woke up and thought I had moved on or forgotten those feelings of hurt and anger, but I didn't. The whole scene has been playing in my mind on a constant loop all day. After talking to my angel mother about it, we concluded that this is Satan's way of distracting me. This week I am submitting a pretty big application, and it's not due until tomorrow, and I feel slightly derailed. It blows.

     But, there is a silver lining, as there tends to be in these miserable situations. This silver lining is friends, family, coworkers, prayer. The knowledge that I have of who I am in the gospel is so precious. Knowing that I have infinite worth and there is a divine being who loves me regardless of all my imperfections. That's what I am clinging to right now. I hope that more than anything else, this experience has given me a new perspective. I hope to be able to just be more aware of how I treat people and how others treat those around me. I firmly believe that it is possible to have a little love for every person you come into contact with. That's what the gospel is all about. "Yea, and are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort.." (Mosiah 18:9).

Happy Friday!
love, BK